Wellness Tavi/Ranting Future

I was on the wii fit the other day and gained more of my pounds back which left me extremely unsatisfied and it brought me to the conclusion that I'd like to go back to my Wellness Tavi stage. I felt so much better !about myself and I let that all slip away. So here's a bunch of things I do (and want to start doing) to try and make me feel healthily better:

• Exercise every day. Seems obvious but I'd like to start exercising for a minimum of 30 minutes every day. Last night I was on wii fit for 45 minutes and burned 140 calories and felt great! =) I also want to start a situp routine. 25 the first day, then 50, 75, 100, and back to 25. Here I come, flat tummy!
• Reading every day. I used to read all the time. And I've missed it. I feel like I'm a faster reader now that I try to read every day. Plus it always gives me something to talk about and it builds my vocabulary!
• Drinking 8 glasses of water a day. This is a toughie. I can never seem to do it. But it's supposed to be really healthy for your system. So here I go trying it again...
• Lotioning up with sleep therapy or stress therapy lotion. I'm not really sure if this actually works for me but it smells great AND keeps me feeling soft! =)
• Brush/Floss every day. Again. An obvious one. However, I'm really bad at flossing so I want my healthy gums back!
• Keep learning piano and start other hobbies. I feel like other hobbies give me something to do if I'm bored. They stretch my creative mind. I feel great saying I know how to do something. I've started piano and candlemaking. Calligraphy is waiting in the back room for me. I really want to be able to do it all!
• Keeping a clean house. I feel so much better when my surroundings aren't all cluttered and messy. Sounds like a no brainer but I need to keep reminding myself to clean. Not to mention I have good liquid potpurri and love decorating with new things which raises my spirits. Raised spirits=wellness Tavi. =)
• Being more optimistic/happy. I don't want to be crabby all the time. I hope to keep a better attitude.
• Tracking food. It helps me to not overinduldge. =)

Well. That's a start. Does anybody have anything else they do to feel better about themselves???

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Two posts for today. I just need to rant to be honest.
All of a sudden my life just seems to be changing. All of a sudden James might move out and live with Kyle. James is leaving for Chicago in either January or September. And I'm really worried about how to make a long distance relationship work. Ideally, I'd like to be able to leave for Chicago Thursday nights and come home Sunday nights. That gives me every weekend to be able to see and visit James. I'm also hoping that he'll be able to come up on his breaks and stuff. So now my problem is money. I'm hoping Megan will move in with me. That would be super fun and I'd have money to be able to visit him. She offered to take care of Nann's when I'm gone and said she'd be okay with it. The more I look into him moving to Chicago the more hopeful I am that it will work. I'd see him on weekends and breaks hopefully and then when I don't we can use the web cam, write letters, talk on the phone. Thankfully it's only a two year program and not a four year. Don't get me wrong. I'm so happy that he's moving foreward with his life and hopefully advancing in the career he wants. I just want to be assured that we're going to make it. I wish I could live with him down there but he's not comfortable with it. I'm hoping after (before would be better!) he's done with the two years that he'll be ready to move foreward with me, too. I mean we've been dating a long time!

Is it possible for long term relationships to work?

Sorry about this lengthy rant. I just needed to vent. =/

Instead of...I am...

~INSTEAD OF...going out with the girls on Saturday night...I AM...cleaning the house because it's the only time I'm not tired.

~INSTEAD OF...Staying up all night..I AM...in bed by 10:00

~INSTEAD OF...Free spending my money...I AM...spending hundreds of dollars in bills and rent a month.

~INSTEAD OF...Working part time...I AM...working ten hour shifts.

~INSTEAD OF...Being a kid...I AM...thinking  about how I would raise kids.

~INSTEAD OF...Oggling boys at the club...I AM...preparing dinner for the man I love.

~INSTEAD OF...Having a dream job...I AM...barely beating minimum wage!

~INSTEAD OF...Drinking non-alcoholic strawberry daiquiris...I AM...drinking Bahama Mamas!

~INSTEAD OF...Having a worry free vacation...I AM...getting a sitter for Nann's.

~INSTEAD OF...Feeling healthy...I AM...insurance-less!

~INSTEAD OF...Living my fantasy life...I AM...playing out my reality life.

And you know what? This is all okay. I love my life. And having all these responsibilities I didn't have when I was little makes life more rewarding. =)

A Change of Heart?

So I was just looking through a photo album of my Mom & Dads of when Cait, Trace, and I were all little and I felt very emotional. I always say how much I don't want kids now and I have many reasons why. However, looking through all my old childhood memories and seeing how different my brother and sister are now just greatly affected me. I always see families as there families...not how it would be if it was my own. I always see rich families, families where the parents aren't around...families with super bratty kids...and mine wouldn't be like that...

Don't get me wrong...it still scares me. I'm always flipflopping on whether I want kids or not...but I'm just saying that I really have happy memories from my childhood and looking at those pictures made me really happy. It made me see the fun in having a family. It made me see the joy kids get from everyday things. It made me see that I was one of those pyschotic typical kids. I was one of the kids that drove parents crazy...and even though being a parent would be hard...it would totally be worth it in so many ways.

To Move or not to Move?

Sooo I've been faced with this decision about moving to Chicago and for the life of me...I can't decide what to do! I've been researching info about it...I've been making a pro con list...arghh. Does anybody know if it will be really really hard to live in Chicago? I've heard that it's really expensive...but...I don't know...here. I'll make my pro con list and then you guys can give input!

Pros

• I'll have James as my roommate...therefore split bills for everything!
• I'll probably get a better paying job
• The experience of living in a big city
• I'll gain some independence not having family down there...
• It's only a three hour drive away if anything were to happen!

Cons

• I really wont get to see James at all for two years
• It sounds like it will be really expensive
• I'll lose a great job that I have here
• I'll be away from my friends and family! =(

Okay...that's all I'll start with for now...but I'll add later!

Input...?!?!?!

New to This Whole Thing

So I really WANT to be apart of this whole blogger thing...I just don't feel like I have the time to! So here is me trying to start one. I'll need to figure out the whole site which may take awhile. I hope it's as good as Xanga. I LOVED xanga and I think it'll be fun to read what people have to say.

Well, until next time~

P.S...Happy, Megan? =)